And Yet Another New Season.

It's been quite awhile since I've had a good ramble...so I think I'm due. And in good time...I have entered yet another new season in life. Many of you may be unaware that I am going through a divorce. Ouch. I don't enjoy seeing that word. I don't enjoy admitting that's what I'm going through. However, as you all know, I am a very open person. I hope that by sharing the realities that I live through, I can hopefully touch someone that can relate to or understand what I am going through. And if not, it's therapeautic to journal my thoughts. Adjusting to being a single mom, and a single person, has not been easy by any stretch of the imagination. I mourn the fact that my children can no longer have mommy and daddy in the same household. I mourn the fact that I couldn't make my marriage work. It hurts. Feels like failure. With that said, I am certain that I am in the place I am supposed to be. Even though it's painful. Even though it's not what I had ever dreamed my life would become. Nevertheless, here I am. A single mom. 32 with 2 beautiful children. Struggling to make ends meet. Yep, that's my life. Through it all, God has been so faithful. Despite my weaknesses, insecurites and sin, He is always faithful. I know that in this season I need to learn to fully depend on Him as my husband, provider, my everything. Which I can honestly say, I never truly have. I went on an amazing retreat this past weekend at Big Sandy Camp in McGregor, MN. It was obvious that God had a purpose for my being there. The message to me was so clear; live in the present moment; be still, and know that He is God. Regardless of my circumstances, I need to live in the present...and allow God to teach me what He wants to teach me through this specific season of life. And no matter how hopeless life may seem, He is in control. AND...He is good. It never ceases to amaze me how amazing our God is. In all of my mess that I have made; He remains faithful. He will not turn His back on me. And He will use this for His glory. Even though it is painful, and lonely, and devastating. My hope is in Christ. He will never let us down. Just reveling in His goodness....and I hope that you all know that you are never too far gone. Our God's mercy and love are neverending. He longs for you to turn to Him. And He is good.