To Live, or Not to Live...

Well I have been in a bit of a slump lately. Back to TVland, yuck. I gotta say I am so tired of just letting my life pass me by. I realized yesterday, I need to choose to live. Everyday. Rather than just letting my feelings steer the boat, I need to take the wheel back! Living victoriously in Christ is a choice. I can choose to wake up, mumble a half-hearted prayer and stumble through my day. Or, I can choose to wake up, seek Christ, spend time in the word, and live. Does that make sense? I go a couple of days without reading the word and truly spending time seeking the Lord and then I'm like, oh, God is probably mad or disappointed in me so I'll just ignore the voice inside me that urges me to open the word. So wrong!!! I don't know why I make things so difficult. I get in the way of myself so often. And I also forget that Satan roams the earth looking for his next victim to devour and deceive. As you can probably tell from my blog, I'm on a roller coaster. One day I'm up, and the next I'm down. Yuck. I don't want to whine, just letting ya'll know where I'm at. Struggling as usual! I know deep down that a big part that is missing is fellowship. I'm a lone elbow, living apart from the body, so I'm not so effective. I don't know why I'm so scared to just dive in and get involved in the church. And I know myself, always making excuses. Some encouragement please!!! I went dress shopping with my beautiful friend Jacci today, and she found "the one". I am so excited for her! She is so beautiful inside and out and God has truly blessed her with Zac. They are an amazing couple. Even her engagement ring and proposal are witnessing tools for God's kingdom. So awesome. Congrats guys! Well, that's all for today. Isn't my munchkin cute?!